Sands....Surf and burn...

after two days of searching in the deserts i've returned...

it was painful to come back,
my reasons for going to the desert....to find a book analyzing in physical dream analysys....after escaping the hospital it was an easy task of leaving the front gates...Hidden Grass has been mortaly wounded and anyone can escape the wound, and enter it,

while traveling the vast sands of earth I had exeeded my point of exaustion, not knowing my own limits once more...I awoke in a old woman's hut at nightfall...she provided the book to me....it turns out...in asking for her name...was the wrong thing to do..

...Paoime Isuwara...

Great Grandmother of Paul and Hiro and Kakashi...(Esune has four Brothers, can't remember my friend's name, and Kakashi as in Kakashi Okamoto in world.)

of course...I kept my name simple..as usual...Esune, she was shocked by the name...and I never said my last, only that I knew her grandchildren...no more and I was on my way...I also thanked her for healing my burns...it seems I got a nice crispy tan on my visit to the sand country.

on my return I had regrets...thinking of my childhood with Paul and Hiro...and now I need to confront them within my dreams and defeat them...undergoing the desert alone for two days isn't much training; but it's all I have right now...

if I am a enemy-nin I will act like one. cutting down anyone who tries to stop me....the problem will be...hiding my corpse long enough for this to happen....in the cave...Hiro and Paul could come back to find me...if they are close..

being in the village wont help, nor being near it....

I trust no one with my body...not even....him...

I'll have to prepare in case I don't wake up;
there are too many things that can go wrong...then again I wasn't one to back down from doing something irrational and rash again...it's so soon....am I afraid of them...how can that be!?

I've hated them...and they've hated me....since I was born....
why was it such a shock when they left...I...never cried...until that time....
and Paul...he would....come back...just....to taunt me...in my dreams...controling my body....in pain....why...why did I do this!?


[OOC: Explainin a little on how Esune's emotion cards are played right now. She's lamenting on the past, having regrets on what she's done, and is determined to get the stone back, following that she has darker shading around her eyes and got a tan, the darker eyes represent the sleepless nights, because I represented Esune's childhood to be...if not like Gaara's. darker, deeper, and more incesty. cause i'm just that evil.

I changed Esune's hair back to the original. the curls weren't working with the tan; I was tempted to change her hair color tooo...just to balance it out....but I dunno, I don't want to make people confused. i'm already confused enough!

And i'm going to be dyeing my hair again in Real life, so I need suggestions, my mother is a hairstyelist so I usualy let her do the stuff, I just don't know what I should do, I've been a Natural blonde, Natural Brunette, Dyed redhead, multitoned brown, then I added pink streaks to my bangs, so yeah. everything under the sun except black. which is tempting me. so suggestions would be nice. Peace! ._.]