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another dream....about the gem...

Is there something important to be gained from it...?
upon my readings of books I have found that there is a way...to tranission solid objects...through the matter of thought space...if you share thin lines of blood...in this Akatsuki seal is a certian quantities of my own....and Paul's blood..he holds the gem...so in his slumbers in another country...I can invade his thoughts...and if I am strong enough...take the gem...

is this another foolish saunder?
....Koichi-sama has been so kind to me...having patience...while I have been driven to one insanity to the next...I don't feel...just promising my most precious part of me to him....would be enough to repay him....he took interest in the gem; I do not care for it...but I will give it to him if I can..in the way possible that wont injure me the most..

another...thing happend beside my thoughts....Kenkora found me dwelling near the cave to the hideout...and brought me back to his room....he studdered...his face was red....this wasn't like him at all..I kept pressureing him....until he broke...

and said....

He loved me.....

after I broke his arms....
tortured him.....
and mocked him.....

he loved me....

and yet...I will never return those feelings towards him...no matter how much it hurts my heart...an Akatsuki...and a Genin....

and Koichi....it is a painful trial...this life...

{OOC time: I'm about to become sick again ._.
Anxiaty about opening my own little store, since Hiro and Paul have been dead as far as I'm concerned; and it totaly sucks that i'm the only Akatsuki in the RP that's still in the country! as far as the RP is concerned Hiro and Paul have retorted to finding more information on the gem and how to harness it's power way out of country...as for Cream pan I don't know.

but this is driving me nuts, and killing my health. SL no copy paste invintory bugs have my brain on the fritz as well. as well as 50 IM's in a single afternoon...sometimes I just want to crawl into bed and sleep until next year and wake up to over 200 IM's saying "WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN!?"....that is sounding really good actualy;

I ate some really bad seafood this morning....actualy I really don't like seafood so hell if I know why I was eating seafood. crab especialy...smells like cat throw up and tastes like a lemon dipped in pickle juice....urk...ugh...*resists urge to barf*

Opening a store....WTF was I thinking?
I only currently have 4 things, trying to teach Kiba Noonan how to use a Vendor is like trying to teach Bill cosby to play Pokemon....maybe teaching bill cosby to play pokemon would be easier. AND I CAN'T STOP THINKING OF A PLOT FOR FIVE SECONDS! >_<;

*Cries and brawls into her pillows*

I just want to take a break.....anyways the music video..I just was randomly watching a anime series I used to watch all the time in my youth; Card Captor Sakura...then I found this...which-

don't beat me up on this Chris! >=>;

Reminded me of Kenkora and Esune. I thought it was cute.
the score still stands firm;

Kenkora: 10
Koichi: 16
Sleep: 50.

I like sleeping more then the both of you. <3

G'night fellow....whoever reads this blog!)