Foolishness.....I have to try...

Talking with that Sakura girl for as much as I could stand....
I learnt that she formed a "bond" with Paul, my brother, a "pact" if you will,
that if she was his spy, he would let go of his hold on me,

but in that I see she is a idiot for believing such words, and I told her I would not listen to her until she stopped her stupid quary, Truth is before Paul turned he stole my Journal and made me Kiss her,

and she actualy thought I had feelings for her, what a lovesick dog,

getting onto the part of why she is stupid...I have dug into the Isuwara family history...even though I am not a part of their inept family...it seems Paul forced me to drink blood from a wound on his hand, and somehow since our bond was strong enough..even on the rickety edge of distruction...I have their family Bloodline, which is if you have to a soul hardening amount of training...you can control your other family members, just by the thoughts in your mind, with no puppets and no chakra strings,

so far...in the Isuwara family Paul and Hiro were the only ones who have actualy suceeded in doing such a thing, no one else has even came close.

So....I am doing what Koichi-sama told me to....
In late nights when the hospital is empty...I confront whatever is inside of me...controling me...

I want to control it.

even if it hurts me inside so much...I do not want to trouble him with this burden...
I know this monster scratched words into my Journal, Today maybe...I will take my bandages off...and see what happend to my forehead...the headaches are getting worse...


(Another Music video that made me think of Esune and Koichi, Even if some people think Zabuza is creepy and ugly I like him. he's Hot. >_>;
and even though Esune is not a male I can see she compliments next to Haku for the distraught childhood, and the student teacher bond again. CIRCLES!...okay i'm done...*drools staring at Zabuza*)