The darkness....a good thing?
I have...avoided this for a long time...
as of recent...my brothers...have abandoned me...the two who have cared for me....
they are now missing nin....I cannot believe it...Paul and Hiro...
Paul left first....no one....even told me...the day I was on guard duty with kenkora...
I saw a gilmse of him in black robes with red clouds...it was Kenkora who told me that Paul had defected...I...it was like I could not breathe....the pain was unbarable...like...as if someone had jabbed a Kunai into my throat..
I hid by the hospital...
that's when he came....Paul...I couldn't believe it...was really him...black robed...and a sun hat...he was really...I trembled under his stature....until Kuroken and Shikasama came for me, I was hurried to the hermit's hut...and then to the Keikage's office. he persued me anywhere...
but...when we were inside...Hiro came, and escorted me outside...only to the hermit's house..where Paul was waiting....he abused my body...Hiro held me down and punched me unconcious. when I awoke...I was in the hospital. Shikasama, and Kuroken in worsening conditions. my forehead...hurt like never before...
what...what happend in the hermit's house...I don't even beieve I can write in this journal...or tell anyone...I...can only say...there is nothing...that will ever gain my trust...again...
Today....I was so upset...so weak in my head...I attacked Kenkora...and pulled his arms until they dislocated...I was so angry....because he broke a mask that Paul had given me before Shikasama had interupted,
I will wait at the gate....every day...for them to return...until I can't stand anymore..until I die...they....mean the world to me...even if they hurt me to the point where I could not move, or stand,
I still feel unbarable pain from my forehead but wear a forefront...I can't hear any voices...not Okami's...not that feminin voice...I'm afraid to take the bandage off...Sakura keeps interupting when me and Koichi have a chance to talk....this is getting annoying.
(Seriously, this is getting to the point. where I told her literaly to fuck off OOC, now where I came from, it got to the point where if you try to defend against something in RP you get told off, I told Kairi to stop the god-modding shit, using level 50 moves when she's only a genin. I of course apologized, keeping in good heart towards....keep your friends close and your enemies closer.)
I haven't had much time to talk to Koichi-san about this....
I will keep my promise...
I have felt funny for the past few days..since the attack,
my mind...seems to go for the most part...I haven't been able to concintrate on even the littlest things...maybe it's the pain...my forehead..my body...constantly aches in pain...I keep a ground front face even through the pain...
What Paul did to my body...my mind...I would....I would have never forgiven him....and yet..I want them to come back...
what will I do...go with them..so I can die trying to revenge my body!?
or stay.....and wait for my revenge....
Koichi sama...do I have to leave you...to save my dreams?
as of recent...my brothers...have abandoned me...the two who have cared for me....
they are now missing nin....I cannot believe it...Paul and Hiro...
Paul left first....no one....even told me...the day I was on guard duty with kenkora...
I saw a gilmse of him in black robes with red clouds...it was Kenkora who told me that Paul had defected...I...it was like I could not breathe....the pain was unbarable...like...as if someone had jabbed a Kunai into my throat..
I hid by the hospital...
that's when he came....Paul...I couldn't believe it...was really him...black robed...and a sun hat...he was really...I trembled under his stature....until Kuroken and Shikasama came for me, I was hurried to the hermit's hut...and then to the Keikage's office. he persued me anywhere...
but...when we were inside...Hiro came, and escorted me outside...only to the hermit's house..where Paul was waiting....he abused my body...Hiro held me down and punched me unconcious. when I awoke...I was in the hospital. Shikasama, and Kuroken in worsening conditions. my forehead...hurt like never before...
what...what happend in the hermit's house...I don't even beieve I can write in this journal...or tell anyone...I...can only say...there is nothing...that will ever gain my trust...again...
Today....I was so upset...so weak in my head...I attacked Kenkora...and pulled his arms until they dislocated...I was so angry....because he broke a mask that Paul had given me before Shikasama had interupted,
I will wait at the gate....every day...for them to return...until I can't stand anymore..until I die...they....mean the world to me...even if they hurt me to the point where I could not move, or stand,
I still feel unbarable pain from my forehead but wear a forefront...I can't hear any voices...not Okami's...not that feminin voice...I'm afraid to take the bandage off...Sakura keeps interupting when me and Koichi have a chance to talk....this is getting annoying.
(Seriously, this is getting to the point. where I told her literaly to fuck off OOC, now where I came from, it got to the point where if you try to defend against something in RP you get told off, I told Kairi to stop the god-modding shit, using level 50 moves when she's only a genin. I of course apologized, keeping in good heart towards....keep your friends close and your enemies closer.)
I haven't had much time to talk to Koichi-san about this....
I will keep my promise...
I have felt funny for the past few days..since the attack,
my mind...seems to go for the most part...I haven't been able to concintrate on even the littlest things...maybe it's the pain...my forehead..my body...constantly aches in pain...I keep a ground front face even through the pain...
What Paul did to my body...my mind...I would....I would have never forgiven him....and yet..I want them to come back...
what will I do...go with them..so I can die trying to revenge my body!?
or stay.....and wait for my revenge....
Koichi sama...do I have to leave you...to save my dreams?
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