Another thought....

After my usual training....
one hundred sets of punches....
twenty laps on the river....

I knew something...that I didn't understand before,
that I need to put my emotions beside me....
no matter how Koichi-sama gestures towards me.....
no matter how nice he is.....
no matter how much I like him...

I have to train harder...and become a better nin...
before I can admit that I feel something towards Koichi-sama...
that isn't blood lust....

I wonder if I will ever become a great nin, I have not even attended any of Kjinnay-sensei's classes in the past few days...I leave them...I can only hope what Kjinnay and Koichi have taught me will be enough....

If I fail Koichi-sama again...blood will spill...

my own....by my own hands...