Dear diary....who am I?

(Hiro Isuwara and Esune)


(Esune and Kenkora)


(Esune and Koichi Kinuta)


My name is Esune Isuwara......or is it..?
I am age thirteen......

I am hoping to become a very skilled nin....even though I have missed a few classes at the academy....lately I haven't been well, I've started smoking....because I learnt I'm not who I am...many Jounins are angry that I have such a bad habbit,

Koichi.....that is the subject of today's diary.....

he seems to be...odd...since the last time I talked to him,
my Sensei Kjinnay told me I should be careful of the Kinuta clan because...
....I can't even write it....it scares me to know though...

It seems Koichi is pushing away from Kenkora...his own blood, and being closer to me....maybe if I act like I have no interest...I can dodge a Kunai (Frostie note: Also known as dodging a bullet) even if I hurt myself in the process....when I was in the hospital in the village, Koichi came in while I was unconcious....my forehead hurt alot...he knows about my the gem....but he doesn't know....

every time my head hurts...I feel...bad...like I could hurt someone...or get angry enough to physicaly hurt someone...it usualy happens after my brothers "training session" with me...that was the cause of my last trip to the hospital, I feel so pathetic...I hardly know any Jutsu's...I fall asleep during class...

and now...I am losing the respect of the Jounins...but I don't care....

who am I....why do I have this gem on my forehead...

why.....why did he have to say those nice things....I feel so horrible for saying so many mean things....but I can't help it....it's like...someone else is controling me....

I have to be by myself....I need to....I....I can't stop crying while writing this...how stupid is that...if I was born a man this would be different.....

Koichi Sama...why can't I feel safe standing next to you....?
what is this feeling.....